An Ode To A ,Good, Smack Of Honest Perspective.

*Sighs* Yep. Sometimes, someone comes along and literally slaps you around the head and says, “sort your fucking life out!”. It’s happened so many times recently. Always from people I love and respect. I heard it all, but heard nothing. …

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I Go Out On Friday Nights…..

Apart from from a some early chores on Saturday morning and a bit of DIY, Saturday daytime. I’m staying in. The idea of getting into my bed and staying in it most of the weekend is the biggest lure at …

Not For The Lack Of Trying

At least I can now be honest and say, without you, most of the incentive is gone. It just doesn’t matter anymore I suppose.  Well, it still matters,but most of the lure is gone. The daily silence hurts my ears …

Yay! Lists!

I’m glad I booked that extra baggage allowance as now my mind is writing lists. Pens, books, tablet, Bluetooth speaker, etc…. I’m not good at travelling light. I’d take a guitar if I could! Ok. Calm down. I know it’s …

I definitely Have Had Enough

So. In this constant battle I always seem to be in, I’ve decided to deal with it in a way I never normally would. I’m going on Fucking holiday! Yep. A week in warmer climes, all inclusive. Doing fuck all. …

Locked Doors And Grey Ticks

Standing outside a locked door, looking at grey ticks. Sums up what I have done. The destroyer. Take something sweet  and pure, destroy it. Smash it down until it you’re left with is grey ticks. I’m being overly dramatic as …

Porcelain God

“Just a porcelain god, that shatters when it falls.” As the sadness subsides, the anger takes over. How dare you treat me that way! I did nothing by care. Try as hard as I could, to be honest and true. …

Obviously I lied. I can’t shut up.

​“Broken Heart” Though I have a broken heartI’m too busy to be heartbrokenThere’s a lot of things that need to be doneLord I have a broken heartThough I have a broken dreamI’m too busy to be dreaming of youThere’s a …

It comes, It goes…….

honesty. Does it really get you anywhere? You do it for a response, I suppose. Unless the response you want comes from a master of diversion. I will give you the world. I’ll be everything you ever need. I’m not …

Warning Signs

Learn to see them. Learn it well. Never take it for granted. Never hope. I feel like vomiting.

Apologetic Honesty(to myself)

Today is the day I officially give up. A plan that would never come true because it didn’t exist in reality. It was doomed from the start because aspects of it were made up of dreams. The dream of the …

At My Fingertips

When there is nothing left to lose, there is no more fear. The world will consume you like it does all others. You will protect yourself in the only way you have learnt to. Shutting down. Keep it all out. …

Crashing

It’s never a two way street is it? Some people give you everything and you give nothing in return. Others you’d give the world but they think your world’s a piece of shit, and want nothing to do with it. …

Stolen Cheese

With the weekend over, it all starts again. monotony reigns. It would be nice to think, I’ll start feeling like, I’m getting somewhere again.  Keep your head down Mark and don’t start anything! Good advice. I’ll try.  I’ve been working …

All Change. This Train Is Terminating Here.

A good metaphor for life I think. I’ll still be going in the same direction but just in a different way. For those who don’t quite understand why I make the decisions I do, trust me. It will make things …